As this Journey moves on we cherish the little things…a smile that just sneaked out, wonder what he is thinking…reaching for your hand…a wise saying or lesson learned.
He had a terrific time outside on Sunday but it tired him out. I know it meant a great deal to him…Hoping it will happen again.
Unfortunately these events are becoming few and far between. Sleep and rest are taking up a lot of my Farmer’s day now. I worry that he is slipping away.
But just as I say a little prayer for strength for him, the eyes open and he wants a drink or something more substantial. Thank you!
Yesterday he just could not get comfortable… I took the air mattress off his bed and just left the regular mattress on it over the weekend. For a while I thought it made a difference.
My fear is that he has lost so much muscle mass and has become very poor (I do not like that word so much) that his skeleton hurts; that is the only way I can describe it.
Last evening Jeremy and Maggie were both here for a few minutes with their Dad and each had some alone time with him. Jeremy does not like to look down at him so he gets down on the floor and Ed puts his hand out.
The look shared between the two of them is priceless. A connection on this level due to his terrible accident in 1997 has the two of them discussing from heart to heart.
Maggie loves it when Dad draws or paints…she hands him the paints, markers or pencils and they share those moments. Creating together brings a certain calm to both.
When Jess comes they talk baseball and little league or something that happened at work. He likes to hear about Jeb’s games and how the team played…Jeb is definitely an asset to the team…he pitches and can hit as well. The apple of his father’s eye!!!
Chad talks cows or field work…yesterday was herd health check and the conversation was about the success rate of the breeding program.
Elf, one of our Brown Swiss cows was preg checked with the ultra sound and it was determined she was carrying a heifer. YES>>>
One of Chad’s cows, a Holstein named Corvette was checked pregnant with twins!!! The sex of them couldn’t be determined yet. Best scenario would be 2 heifers and worst would be heifer and bull. Either way they will take what they get!!!
I had a nice chat with Jon Katz. Talked about some things that may be on the horizon with this darned disease and how we would handle them. He listens and offers minimal advise which I welcome.
I definitely want to honor my Farmer’s wishes but I need to know when I relent to his wishes that it is indeed what he wants. That is my dilemma but am sure the answers will come when I least expect them.
And so it goes with serious conversations…