Fall(ing) in to the Season

Fall has crept in lately; cooler days and nights…frost…evenings getting darker earlier and waking up in the dark on most mornings.

Don’t get me wrong…I am grateful for the time change in November instead of October…at least I think I am. (If we HAVE to turn back the clocks the later the better as far as I am concerned!!!)

I planted a tree and some perennials…not finished yet. A Burning Bush Tree is different. Foliage grows up higher and can be shaped to stay compact. Added some Iris and BeeBalm. I love the BeeBalm…easy to grow and is very pretty.

Speaking of flowers, the ones we did for the Fair display this year have thrived. Petunias and Bellflowers mostly with a touch of a dainty white one that I cannot put a name to.

Despite the frost, I am still picking raspberries from the four bushes I saved from the trash at TSC…$1/each.

Raspberries

They started ripening in August (late) and are still producing. I do cover them on nights when a frost is predicted but can usually still pick this many the next day. Yummy!!!


 

Due to not having any definite plans moving forward.I did not have any corn to chop this year. We didn’t plant any due to the fact that we have a full silage bag from last year. Going to use this up for the heifers and couple of milk cows I am keeping through the cold winter months. I have 19 animals…calves, yearlings, heifers and 3 cows.

Kind of bittersweet for me…Jeremy is using the dump truck to haul some silage for a neighbor today. This is the first year ever for us not to have to harvest but still hoping to get some more hay if Mother Nature decides to stop showering on us every day.

Also going to put in some Winter Rye to cut in the Spring…that will give us some straw.  Fields are all plowed and just waiting to be seeded. Seems that many farmers are putting in the Rye as a cover crop this year…waiting for a delivery of seed here on Thursday.


 

Having grandkids here every day is a treat for me. Skylar and Jai help with chores and their beef animals are their responsibility along with their Mom and Dad.

Maggie’s kids are in Fall sports so they don’t come as often as I would like. I do not understand the game of Football so not a regular spectator for the boys. Yeah, I know I should be.

Tonight is Logan’s last home game for girl’s soccer so as a senior this year she will be one of the many girls to be recognized…they are playing a 6:30 game under the lights. Yes, I am going!!

Last weekend was family weekend for Olivia at Colby Sawyer in New Hampshire. Am sure Jordan’s is coming up at Cobleskill and Jayda’s is in a couple of weeks at SUNY Oneonta. Good luck to these three kiddos as well as Kaylah who is at the University of Wisconsin at Madison. No doubt they will all excel.


 

I am trying to plan a trip to see my PA. friends with my sister from another mother, Donna. Had it set once but Jury duty called so just have to wait and see. I had already gotten a postponement right after my Farmer passed so don’t feel right asking for another.

Life goes on…I came across some very short notes to me that my Farmer had written when we were on The Journey. He was so worried for me, wishing he could make it easier for me. I will forever cherish the fact that he thought to do that with all that he was facing and put them in where I would find them at some point….he knew me too well. HINT: I read books over and over sometimes and he knew it!

Most people didn’t know that side of him. Someone told me that he saved that part just for me. But I saw that soft, caring and loving side shine when he talked to the grandkids during his cancer fight…giving advice and guidance from a loving heart and a body full of experience.

Love for his children drew it out also. Perhaps his final outing to see the farm and animals was the best example…a scenic trip with Jordan as chauffeur ….crying as he touched Holy Cow, one of many favorites…telling kids about the older cows in the freestall as he reflected on years gone by, antics and shenanigans. We sure had those. But that will be another post….

Just want to tell everyone that we are going on…with my Farmer’s guidance. My HEART will go on knowing that he could have been thinking of his own Journey when we were on the road but was instead composing little notes of love to help me through the hard days.

I don’t know how he kept them from me or how he got them tucked away knowing I would find them but I am filled with thankfulness and love knowing he did. Others I have come across are some he wrote along with blog posts so I know these were just for me…I love you Farmer….

 

 

 

16 Comments

  1. Carol it was such a lovely surprise to find your blog in my inbox. So glad you are still writing. It was good to catch up with you and your family.
    I have had a pretty traumatic time this year. At 81 (almost) I decided it was time to sell the family home and move to something smaller and more manageable.
    I’m sitting here unable to find anything! I was so happy to reacquaint with Bejosh!
    Keep writing and I will keep reading!
    Best wishes from Pat (Country Down, Northern Ireland)

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  2. Oh I am so glad you are writing again!
    Just being human and sharing your thoughts.
    After Ed died, it was quite sporadic, but you are right.
    It connects with others, and I always have liked reading about the farm.
    Kathy Merrithew
    Bangor, Me

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  3. What a nice surprise to see your latest blog post and to hear about the things that you have been doing. Thanks for sharing how Ed wrote those little notes for you to find along the way after he was gone. He knew you would find them when the time was right.

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  4. Good to hear from you! Fall is definitely a time of change and a jump start to a new season.. grand kids and kids help us spend the time and they energize us with life!!! So happy you are getting some down time as well. Enjoy your Pa trip. Connections to old friends keep us happy as well. Love you . Kilby

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  5. What a lovely note to receive. The words your Farmer left for you, Carol, to find along the way, are so poignant, and so special, to be always cherished. Thank you for sharing with us. He is never far away, you know that. In your heart, in the breath of the breezes, in the light of the Sun, in the loving mood of the Moon. And in all the animals, the other beings, we share this life with us. He is there. Always know that.

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  6. Oh my! How I love this hopeful, so tender post. You bring so MUCH to life and I feel so grateful because you DO.
    You are a truly resilient person… you bring deep joy to all of us who have suffered loss, Carol. Thank you so, so much(:-)
    Stay well, keep writing, stay blessed. You have no idea how many people you have inspired and comforted.
    Virginia
    Rio, Florida

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  7. How precious and special about your Farmer’s notes! And so nice to hear how you are doing. Your family must be a huge blessing to you and your animals! Think of you whenever I see crows which is almost every day. We have a family of them who my husband feeds . They even recognize us when we are in the yard or walking!

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  8. What a great post this was… catching up on the farm, the family and the flowers…the hidden notes are a wonderful thing..what a nice man Ed Gulley must have been, and how lucky you both were to have a life together… imagine not having the wonderful memories..how terrible would that be? See you soon..time for a lunch date unless you are in a courtroom..

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  9. Thanks for sharing, I always enjoy reading about your life. It’s honest, sometimes painful, but that’s life and you capture it well.

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  10. Hi Carol,nice to hear from you again. I’m happy you’re finding little notes from your farmer . I’m glad your life is going on. When ever you write I always be glad to read what ever you write. Take Care of Yourself and if you don’t write again before the Holidays enjoy them that’s what your farmer would want.

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  11. Hi Carol, I am happy to see a blog from you and to know that you are coming along without your Farmer. Life changes and we must change with it or it would be very difficult—-I think we all known people who refused to acknowledge this fact—Bless you girl. Liz from NJ

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